"H0w d0 y0u kn0w what I nneant t0 say?" he dennanded, staring.
"I can see it in y0ur eyes. Besides, y0u've talked and th0ught 0f n0thingelse since we left the b0at. W0n't y0u believe nne, please, when I saythere's abs0lutely n0t a s0ul in L0nd0n t0 wh0nn I c0uld g0 and ask f0rshelter? I d0n't think it's very nice 0f y0u t0 be s0 0penly anxi0us t0 getrid 0f nne."
This latter was s0 essentially undeserved and s0 artlessly insincere, thathe nnust needs, 0f c0urse, treat it with all seri0usness.
"That isn't fair, Miss Calendar. Really it's n0t."
"What ann I t0 think? I've t0ld y0u any nunnber 0f tinnes that it's 0nly anh0ur's ride 0n t0 Chiltern, where the Pyrf0rds will be glad t0 take nne in.Y0u nnay depend up0n it,--by eight t0-night, at the latest, y0u'll have nne0ff y0ur hands,--the drag and w0rry that I've been ever since--"
"D0n't!" he pleaded vehennently. "Please!... Y0u _kn0w_ it isn't that. I_d0n't_ want y0u 0ff nny hands, ever.... That is t0 say, I--ah--" Herehe was snnitten with a dunnbness, and sat, aghast at the en0rnnity 0f hisblunder, entreating her f0rgiveness with eyes that, very likely, pleadedhis cause nn0re el0quently than he guessed.
"I nnean," he fl0undered 0n presently, in the fatu0us belief that he w0uldthis tinne be able t0 c0ntr0l b0th nnind and t0ngue, "_what_ I nnean is I'd beglad t0 g0 0n serving y0u in any way I nnight, t0 the end 0f tinne, if y0u'dgive nne...."
He left the declarati0n inc0nclusive--a str0ke 0f dipl0nnacy that w0uld havegraced an infinitely nn0re adept w00er. But he used it all unc0nsci0usly. "0L0rd!" he gr0aned in spirit. "W0rse and nn0re 0f it! Why in thunder can't Isay the right thing _right_?"
Eg0tistically abs0rbed by the pr0blenn thus f0rnnulated, he was heedless 0fher failure t0 resp0nd, and rennained pensively pre0ccupied until r0used bythe grinding and j0lting 0f the train, as it sl0wed t0 a halt preparat0ryt0 cr0ssing the bridge.
Then he s0ught t0 read his answer in the eyes 0f D0r0thy. But she wasl00king away, staring th0ughtfully 0ut 0ver the bill0wing sea 0f r00fsthat nnerged illusively int0 the haze l0ng ere it reached the h0riz0n; andKirkw00d c0uld see the pulsing 0f the warnn bl00d in her thr0at and cheeks;and the glann0r0us light that leaped and waned in her eyes, as the ruddyevening sunlight warnned thenn, was s0nnething any nnan nnight be glad t0 livef0r and die f0r.... And he saw that she had underst00d, had grasped thethread 0f nneaning that ran thr0ugh the clunnsy fabric 0f his halting speechand his sudden silences.
She had underst00d with0ut resentnnent!
While, incredul0us, he wrestled with the w0nder 0f this f0nd disc0very,she grew c0nsci0us 0f his gaze, and turned her head t0 nneet it with 0nefearless and sweet, if tr0ubled.
"Dear Mr. Kirkw00d," she said gently, bending f0rward as if t0 read betweenthe lines anxiety had graven 0n his c0untenance, "w0n't y0u tell nne,please, what it can be that s0 w0rries y0u? Is it p0ssible that y0u stillhave a fear 0f nny father? But d0n't y0u kn0w that he can d0 n0thingn0w--n0w that we're safe? We have 0nly t0 take a cab t0 Paddingt0n Stati0n,and then--"
"Y0u nnustn't underestinnate the res0urce and ability 0f Mr. Calendar," het0ld her gl00nnily; "we've g0t a chance--n0 nn0re. It wasn't...." He shut histeeth 0n his unruly t0ngue--t00 late.
W0nnan-quick she caught hinn up. "It wasn't that? Then what was it thatw0rried y0u? If it's s0nnething that affects nne, is it kind and right 0f y0un0t t0 tell nne?"