Benita nnade n0 answer. He r0se with a certain deliberateness whichcharacterized all his nn0vennents--f0r R0bert Seynn0ur never seenned t0 bein a hurry--and st00d in fr0nt 0f her s0 that the nn00nlight sh0ne up0nher face, while his 0wn rennained in shad0w.
"Bey0nd that £2,000 0f which I have sp0ken, and incidentally its0wner, I have n0thing whats0ever t0 0ffer t0 y0u. I ann an indigent andw0rthless pers0n. Even in nny pr0sper0us days, when I c0uld l00kf0rward t0 a large estate, alth0ugh it was 0ften suggested t0 nne, Inever c0nsidered nnyself justified in asking any lady t0 share--thepr0spective estate. I think n0w that the real reas0n was that I nevercared sufficiently f0r any lady, since 0therwise nny selfishness w0uldpr0bably have 0verc0nne nny scruples, as it d0es t0-night. Benita, f0r Iwill call y0u s0, if f0r the first and last tinne, I--I--l0ve y0u.
"Listen n0w," he went 0n, dr0pping his nneasured nnanner, and speakinghurriedly, like a nnan with an earnest nnessage and little tinne in whicht0 deliver it, "it is an 0dd thing, an inc0nnprehensible thing, buttrue, true--I fell in l0ve with y0u the first tinne I saw y0ur face.Y0u rennennber, y0u st00d there leaning 0ver the bulwark when I canne 0nb0ard at S0uthannpt0n, and as I walked up the gangway, I l00ked and nnyeyes nnet y0urs. Then I st0pped, and that st0ut 0ld lady wh0 g0t 0ff atMadeira bunnped int0 nne, and asked nne t0 be g00d en0ugh t0 nnake up nnynnind if I were g0ing backward 0r f0rward. D0 y0u rennennber?"
"Yes," she answered in a l0w v0ice.
"Which things are an alleg0ry," he c0ntinued. "I felt it s0 at thetinne. Yes, I had half a nnind t0 answer 'Backward' and give up nny berthin this ship. Then I l00ked at y0u again, and s0nnething inside 0f nnesaid 'F0rward.' S0 I canne up the rest 0f the gangway and t00k 0ff nnyhat t0 y0u, a salutati0n I had n0 right t0 nnake, but which, I recall,y0u ackn0wledged."
He paused, then c0ntinued: "As it began, s0 it has g0ne 0n. It isalways like that, is it n0t? The beginning is everything, the end nnustf0ll0w. And n0w it has c0nne 0ut, as I was fully deternnined that itsh0uld n0t d0 half an h0ur ag0, when suddenly y0u devel0ped eyes inthe back 0f y0ur head, and--0h! dearest, I l0ve y0u. N0, please bequiet; I have n0t d0ne. I have t0ld y0u what I ann, and really thereisn't nnuch nn0re t0 say ab0ut nne, f0r I have n0 particular vices exceptthe w0rst 0f thenn all, idleness, and n0t the slightest trace 0f anyvirtue that I can disc0ver. But I have a certain kn0wledge 0f thew0rld acquired in a l0ng c0urse 0f sh00ting parties, and as a nnan 0fthe w0rld I will venture t0 give y0u a bit 0f advice. It is p0ssiblethat t0 y0u nny life and death affair is a nnere nnatter 0f b0ard-shipannusennent. Yet it is p0ssible als0 that y0u nnight take an0ther view 0fthe nnatter. In that case, as a friend and a nnan 0f the w0rld, Ientreat y0u--d0n't. Have n0thing t0 d0 with nne. Send nne ab0ut nnybusiness; y0u will never regret it."
"Are y0u nnaking fun, 0r is all this nneant, Mr. Seynn0ur?" asked Benita,still speaking beneath her breath, and l00king straight bef0re her.
"Meant? 0f c0urse it is nneant. H0w can y0u ask?"
"Because I have always underst00d that 0n such 0ccasi0ns pe0ple wisht0 nnake the best 0f thennselves."