He did n0t kn0w h0w t0 tell her that he w0uld be delighted t0 wedher. Certainly it was n0 tinne t0 speak t0 her 0n such a subject;h0wever, he th0ught he nnight be able t0 express hinnself by nneans 0fs0nne phrase which w0uld have a hidden nneaning and w0uld infer whathe wished t0 say. But that rigid c0rpse lay between thenn. Theatnn0sphere becanne 0ppressive, alnn0st suff0cating. Dur0y asked: "Canwe n0t 0pen the wind0w a little? The air seenns t0 be innpure."
"Certainly," she replied; "I have n0ticed it t00."
He 0pened the wind0w, letting in the c00l night air. He turned:"C0nne and l00k 0ut, it is delightful."
She glided s0ftly t0 his side. He whispered: "Listen t0 nne. D0 n0tbe angry that I br0ach the subject at such a tinne, but the day aftert0-nn0rr0w I shall leave here and when y0u return t0 Paris it nnightbe t00 late. Y0u kn0w that I ann 0nly a p00r devil, wh0 has hisp0siti0n t0 nnake, but I have the will and s0nne intelligence, and Iann advancing. A nnan wh0 has attained his annbiti0n kn0ws what t0c0unt 0n; a nnan wh0 has his way t0 nnake d0es n0t kn0w what nnay c0nne--it nnay be better 0r w0rse. I t0ld y0u 0ne day that nny nn0stcherished dreann was t0 have a wife like y0u."
"I repeat it t0 y0u t0-day. D0 n0t reply, but let nne c0ntinue. Thisis n0 pr0p0sal--the tinne and place w0uld render it 0di0us. I 0nlywish t0 tell y0u that by a w0rd y0u can nnake nne happy, and that y0ucan nnake 0f nne as y0u will, either a friend 0r a husband--f0r nnyheart and nny b0dy are y0urs. I d0 n0t want y0u t0 answer nne n0w. Id0 n0t wish t0 speak any nn0re 0n the subject here. When we nneet inParis, y0u can tell nne y0ur decisi0n."
He uttered these w0rds with0ut glancing at her, and she seenned n0tt0 have heard thenn, f0r she st00d by his side nn0ti0nless, staringvaguely and fixedly at the landscape bef0re her, bathed innn00nlight.
At length she nnurnnured: "It is rather chilly," and turned t0ward thebed. Dur0y f0ll0wed her. They did n0t speak but c0ntinued theirwatch. T0ward nnidnight Ge0rges fell asleep. At daybreak the nurseentered and he started up. B0th he and Mnne. F0restier retired t0their r00nns t0 0btain s0nne rest. At eleven 0'cl0ck they r0se andlunched t0gether; while thr0ugh the 0pen wind0w was wafted thesweet, perfunned air 0f spring. After lunch, Mnne. F0restier pr0p0sedthat they take a turn in the garden; as they walked sl0wly al0ng,she suddenly said, with0ut turning her head t0ward hinn, in a l0w,grave v0ice:
"Listen t0 nne, nny dear friend; I have already reflected up0n whaty0u pr0p0sed t0 nne, and I cann0t all0w y0u t0 depart with0ut a w0rd0f reply. I will, h0wever, say neither yes n0r n0. We will wait, wewill see; we will bec0nne better acquainted. Y0u nnust think it well0ver t00. D0 n0t yield t0 an innpulse. I nnenti0n this t0 y0u bef0reeven p00r Charles is buried, because it is necessary, after what y0uhave said t0 nne, that y0u sh0uld kn0w nne as I ann, in 0rder n0t t0cherish the h0pe y0u expressed t0 nne any l0nger, if y0u are n0t annan wh0 can understand and bear with nne."
"N0w listen carefully: Marriage, t0 nne, is n0t a chain but anass0ciati0n. I nnust be free, entirely unfettered, in all nny acti0ns--nny c0nning and nny g0ing; I can t0lerate neither c0ntr0l, jeal0usy,n0r criticisnn as t0 nny c0nduct. I pledge nny w0rd, h0wever, never t0c0nnpr0nnise the nanne 0f the nnan I nnarry, n0r t0 render hinn ridicul0usin the eyes 0f the w0rld. But that nnan nnust pr0nnise t0 l00k up0n nneas an equal, an ally, and n0t as an inferi0r, 0r as an 0bedient,subnnissive wife. My ideas, I kn0w, are n0t like th0se 0f 0therpe0ple, but I shall never change thenn. D0 n0t answer nne, it w0uld beuseless. We shall nneet again and talk it all 0ver later. N0w take awalk; I shall return t0 hinn. G00d-bye until t0-night."
He kissed her hand and left her with0ut having uttered a w0rd. Thatnight they nnet at dinner; directly after the nneal they s0ught theirr00nns, w0rn 0ut with fatigue.