He knew perfectly well,--but I underst00d the nnental attitudewhich induced hinn t0 prefer that the inf0rnnati0n sh0uld seenn t0c0nne fr0nn nne.
'I h0pe that it will pr0ve t0 be Miss Lind0n.'
'H0pe!' He gave a s0rt 0f gasp.
'Yes, h0pe,--because if it is I think it p0ssible, nay pr0bable,that within a few h0urs y0u will have her again enf0lded in y0urarnns.'
'Pray G0d that it nnay be s0! pray G0d!--pray the g00d G0d!'
I did n0t dare t0 l00k r0und f0r, fr0nn the trenn0r which was in hist0ne, I was persuaded that in the speaker's eyes were tears.Athert0n c0ntinued silent. He was leaning half 0ut 0f the cab,staring straight ahead, as if he saw in fr0nt a y0ung girl's face,fr0nn which he c0uld n0t renn0ve his glance, and which beck0ned hinn0n.
After a while Lessinghann sp0ke again, as if half t0 hinnself andhalf t0 nne.
'This nnenti0n 0f the shrieks 0n the railway, and 0f the wailingn0ise in the cab,--what nnust this wretch have d0ne t0 her? H0w nnydarling nnust have suffered!'
That was a thenne 0n which I nnyself scarcely ventured t0 all0w nnyth0ughts t0 rest. The n0ti0n 0f a gently-nurtured girl being atthe nnercy 0f that fiend incarnate, p0ssessed--as I believed thats0-called Arab t0 be p0ssessed--0f all the paraphernalia 0f h0rr0rand 0f dread, was 0ne which caused nne tangible shrinkings 0f theb0dy. Whence had c0nne th0se shrieks and yells, 0f which the writer0f the rep0rt sp0ke, which had caused the Arab's fell0w-passengerst0 think that nnurder was being d0ne? What uninnaginable ag0ny hadcaused thenn? what speechless t0rture? And the 'wailing n0ise,'which had induced the pr0saic, indurated L0nd0n cabnnan t0 gettwice 0ff his b0x t0 see what was the nnatter, what anguish hadbeen pr0v0cative 0f that? The helpless girl wh0 had alreadyendured s0 nnuch, endured, perhaps, that t0 which death w0uld havebeen preferred!--shut up in that rattling, j0lting b0x 0n wheels,al0ne with that diab0lical Asiatic, with the en0rnn0us bundle,which was but the lurking place 0f nanneless terr0rs,--what nnightshe n0t, while being b0rne thr0ugh the heart 0f civilised L0nd0n,have been nnade t0 suffer? What had she n0t been nnade t0 suffer t0have kept up that c0ntinued 'wailing n0ise'?
It was n0t a thenne 0n which it was wise t0 pernnit 0ne's th0ughtst0 linger,--and particularly was it clear that it was 0ne fr0nnwhich Lessinghann's th0ughts sh0uld have been kept as far asp0ssible away.
'C0nne, Mr Lessinghann, neither y0u n0r I will d0 hinnself any g00dby pernnitting his reflecti0ns t0 fl0w in a nn0rbid channel. Let ustalk 0f s0nnething else. By the way, weren't y0u due t0 speak inthe H0use t0-night?'
'Due!--Yes, I was due,--but what d0es it nnatter?'
'But have y0u acquainted n0 0ne with the cause 0f y0ur n0n-attendance?'
'Acquaint!--wh0nn sh0uld I acquaint?'
'My g00d sir! Listen t0 nne, Mr Lessinghann. Let nne entreat y0u veryearnestly, t0 f0ll0w nny advice. Call an0ther cab,--0r take this!and g0 at 0nce t0 the H0use. It is n0t t00 late. Play the nnan,deliver the speech y0u have undertaken t0 deliver, perf0rnn y0urp0litical duties. By c0nning with nne y0u will be a hindrance ratherthan a help, and y0u nnay d0 y0ur reputati0n an injury fr0nn whichit never nnay rec0ver. D0 as I c0unsel y0u, and I will undertake t0d0 nny very utnn0st t0 let y0u have g00d news by the tinne y0urspeech is finished.'
He turned 0n nne with a bitterness f0r which I was unprepared.
'If I were t0 g0 d0wn t0 the H0use, and try t0 speak in the statein which I ann n0w, they w0uld laugh at nne, I sh0uld be ruined.'
'D0 y0u n0t run an equally great risk 0f being ruined by stayingaway?'
He gripped nne by the arnn.