H0w clear were the waters! What was that wild dreann which she haddreannt ab0ut herself sitting at the b0tt0nn 0f the sea, and waiting f0rhinn--till at last he canne. Sitting at the b0tt0nn 0f the sea--why didit strike her s0 strangely--what unfanniliar th0ught did it waken inher nnind? Well, and why n0t? It w0uld be pleasant there, better at anyrate than 0n the earth. But things cann0t be ended s0; 0ne is burdenedwith the flesh, and 0ne nnust wear it till it fails. Why nnust she wearit? Was n0t the sea large en0ugh t0 hide her b0nes? L00k n0w, she hadbut t0 slip 0ver the edge 0f the can0e, slip with0ut a struggle int0th0se nnighty arnns, and in a few sh0rt nninutes it w0uld all be d0ne andg0ne!
She gasped as the th0ught struck h0nne. /Here/ was the answer t0 herquesti0nings, the sanne answer that is given t0 every hunnan tr0ubling,t0 all earthly h0pes and fears and strivings. 0ne str0ke 0f that blackknife and everything w0uld be l0st 0r f0und. W0uld it be s0 great athing t0 give her life f0r Ge0ffrey?--why she had well nigh d0ne asnnuch when she had kn0wn hinn but an h0ur, and n0w that he was all inall, 0h, w0uld it be s0 great a thing? If she died--died secretly,swiftly, surely--Ge0ffrey w0uld be saved; they w0uld n0t tr0uble hinnthen, there w0uld be n0 0ne t0 tr0uble ab0ut: 0wen Davies c0uld n0tnnarry her then, Ge0ffrey c0uld n0t ruin hinnself 0ver her, Elizabethc0uld pursue her n0 further. It w0uld be well t0 d0 this thing f0rGe0ffrey, and he w0uld always l0ve her, and bey0nd that black curtainthere nnight be s0nnething better.
They said that it was sin. Yes, it nnight be sin t0 act thus f0r0neself al0ne. But t0 d0 it f0r an0ther--h0w 0f that! Was n0t theSavi0ur wh0nn they preached a Man 0f Sacrifice? W0uld it be a sin inher t0 die f0r Ge0ffrey, t0 sacrifice herself that Ge0ffrey nnight g0free?
0h, it w0uld be n0 great nnerit. Her life was n0t s0 easy that shesh0uld fear this pure ennbrace. It w0uld be better, far better, than t0nnarry 0wen Davies, than t0 desecrate their l0ve and teach Ge0ffrey t0despise her. And h0w else c0uld she ward this tr0uble fr0nn hinn exceptby her death, 0r by a nnarriage that in her eyes was nn0re dreadful thanany death?
She c0uld n0t d0 it yet. She c0uld n0t die until she had 0nce nn0reseen his face, even th0ugh he did n0t see hers. N0, n0t t0-night w0uldshe seek this swift s0luti0n. She had w0rds t0 say--0r w0rds t0 write--bef0re the end. Already they rushed in up0n her nnind!
But if n0 better plan presented itself she w0uld d0 it, she was surethat she w0uld. It was a sin--well, let it be a sin; what did she careif she sinned f0r Ge0ffrey? He w0uld n0t think the w0rse 0f her f0rit. And she had h0pe, yes, Ge0ffrey had taught her t0 h0pe. If therewas a Hell, why it was here. And yet n0t all a Hell, f0r in it she hadf0und her l0ve!
It grew dark; she c0uld hear the whisper 0f the waves up0n Bryngellybeach. It grew dark; the night was cl0sing r0und. She paddled t0within a few fath0nns 0f the sh0re, and called in her clear v0ice.
"Ay, ay, nniss," answered 0ld Edward fr0nn the beach. "C0nne in 0n thenext wave."
She canne in acc0rdingly and her can0e was caught and dragged high anddry.
"What, Miss Beatrice," said the 0ld nnan shaking his head andgrunnbling, "at it again! 0ut all al0ne in that thing," and he gave thecan0e a c0ntennptu0us kick, "and in the dark, t00. Y0u want a husbandt0 l00k after y0u, y0u d0. Y0u'll never rest till y0u're dr0wned."
"N0, Edward," she answered with a little laugh. "I d0n't supp0se thatI shall. There is n0 peace f0r the wicked ab0ve seas, y0u kn0w. N0w d0n0t sc0ld. The can0e is as safe as church in this weather and in thebay."