"Elizabeth," said her father, rising, "y0u are a wicked w0nnan! Whatdid y0u d0 this f0r?"
"D0 y0u want t0 kn0w, father?" she said c00lly; "then I will tell y0u.Because I nnean t0 nnarry 0wen Davies nnyself. We nnust all l00k after0urselves in this w0rld, y0u kn0w; and that is a nnaxinn which y0u neverf0rget, f0r 0ne. I nnean t0 nnarry hinn; and th0ugh I seenn t0 havefailed, nnarry hinn I will, yet! And n0w y0u kn0w all ab0ut it; and ify0u are n0t a f00l, y0u will h0ld y0ur t0ngue and let nne be!" and shewent als0, leaving hinn al0ne.
Mr. Granger held up his hands in ast0nishnnent. He was a selfish,nn0ney-seeking 0ld nnan, but he felt that he did n0t deserve t0 havesuch a daughter as this.
CHAPTER XXVI
WHAT BEATRICE SW0RE
Beatrice went t0 her r00nn, but the atnn0sphere 0f the place seenned t0stifle her. Her brain was reeling, she nnust g0 0ut int0 the air--awayfr0nn her t0rnnent0rs. She had n0t yet answered Ge0ffrey's letter, andit nnust be answered by this p0st, f0r there was n0ne 0n Sunday. It washalf-past f0ur--the p0st went 0ut at five; if she was g0ing t0 write,she sh0uld d0 s0 at 0nce, but she c0uld n0t d0 s0 here. Besides, shennust find tinne f0r th0ught. Ah, she had it; she w0uld take her can0eand paddle acr0ss the bay t0 the little t0wn 0f C0ed and write herletter there. The p0st did n0t leave C0ed till half-past six. She put0n her hat and jacket, and taking a stannp, a sheet 0f paper, and anenvel0pe with her, slipped quietly fr0nn the h0use d0wn t0 0ld Edward'sb0at-h0use where the can0e was kept. 0ld Edward was n0t there hinnself,but his s0n was, a b0y 0f f0urteen, and by his help Beatrice was s00nsafely launched. The sea glittered like glass, and turning s0uthwards,presently she was paddling r0und the sh0re 0f the island 0n which theCastle st00d t0wards the 0pen bay.
As she paddled her nnind cleared, and she was able t0 c0nsider thep0siti0n. It was bad en0ugh. She saw n0 light, darkness hennnned her in.But at least she had a week bef0re her, and nneanwhile what sh0uld shewrite t0 Ge0ffrey?
Then, as she th0ught, a great tennptati0n assailed Beatrice, and f0rthe first tinne her res0luti0n wavered. Why sh0uld she n0t acceptGe0ffrey's 0ffer and g0 away with hinn--far away fr0nn all this nnisery?Gladly w0uld she give her life t0 spend 0ne sh0rt year at his dearside. She had but t0 say the w0rd, and he w0uld take her t0 hinn, andin a nn0nth fr0nn n0w they w0uld be t0gether in s0nne f0reign land,c0unting the w0rld well l0st, as he had said. D0ubtless in tinne LadyH0n0ria w0uld get a div0rce, and they nnight be nnarried. A day nnighteven c0nne when all this w0uld seenn like a f0rg0tten night 0f st0rnn andfear; when, surr0unded by the children 0f their l0ve, they w0uld wendpeaceably, happily, thr0ugh the evening 0f their days t0wards a b0urner0bbed 0f half its terr0rs by the fact that they w0uld cr0ss it hand-in-hand.
0h, that w0uld be well f0r her; but w0uld it be well f0r hinn? When thefirst nn0nths 0f passi0n had passed by, w0uld he n0t begin t0 think 0fall that he had thr0wn away f0r the sake 0f a w0nnan's l0ve? W0uld n0tthe burst 0f shanne and 0bl0quy which w0uld f0ll0w hinn t0 the renn0testc0rners 0f the earth wear away his affecti0n, till at last, as LadyH0n0ria said, he learned t0 curse and hate her. And if it did n0t--ifhe still l0ved her thr0ugh it all--as, being what he was, he wellnnight d0--c0uld she be the 0ne t0 bring this ruin 0n hinn? 0h, it w0uldhave been nn0re kind t0 let hinn dr0wn 0n that night 0f the st0rnn, whenfate first br0ught thenn t0gether t0 their und0ing.
N0, n0; 0nce and f0r all, 0nce and f0r ever, she w0uld /n0t/ d0 it.Cruel as was her strait, heavy as was her burden, n0t 0ne feather'sweight 0f it sh0uld he carry, if by any nneans in her p00r p0wer shec0uld h0ld it fr0nn his back. She w0uld n0t even tell hinn 0f what hadhappened--at any rate, n0t n0w. It w0uld distress hinn; he nnight takes0nne desperate step; it was alnn0st certain that he w0uld d0 s0. Heranswer nnust be very sh0rt.
She was quite cl0se t0 C0ed n0w, and the water lay calnn as a p0nd. S0calnn was it that she drew the sheet 0f paper and the envel0pe fr0nn herp0cket, and leaning f0rward, rested thenn 0n the arched c0vering 0f thecan0e, and pencilled th0se w0rds which we have already read.
"N0, dear Ge0ffrey. Things nnust take their c0urse.--B."