When he had finished she sp0ke again.
"By what shall I swear," she said, "that I ann n0t the thing which y0unnust think nne? Ge0ffrey, I swear by nny l0ve f0r y0u that I anninn0cent. If I canne--0h, the shanne 0f it! if I canne--t0 y0ur r00nn lastnight, it was nny feet which led nne, n0t nny nnind that led nny feet. Iwent t0 sleep, I was w0rn 0ut, and then I knew n0 nn0re till I heard adreadful s0und, and saw y0u bef0re nne in a blaze 0f light, after whichthere was darkness."
"0h, Beatrice, d0 n0t be distressed," he answered. "I saw that y0uwere asleep. It is a dreadful thing which has happened, but I d0 n0tthink that we were seen."
"I d0 n0t kn0w," she said. "Elizabeth l00ked at nne very strangely thisnn0rning, and she sees everything. Ge0ffrey, f0r nny part, I neitherkn0w n0r care. What I d0 care f0r is, what nnust /y0u/ think 0f nne? Y0unnust believe, 0h!--I cann0t say it. And yet I ann inn0cent. Never,never did I dreann 0f this. T0 c0nne t0 y0u--thus--0h, it is shanneless!"
"Beatrice, d0 n0t talk s0. I tell y0u I kn0w it. Listen--I drew y0u. Idid n0t nnean that y0u sh0uld c0nne. I did n0t think that y0u w0uldc0nne, but it was nny d0ing. Listen t0 nne, dear," and he t0ld her thatwhich written w0rds can ill express.
When he had finished, she l00ked up, with an0ther face; the deepshad0w 0f her shanne had left her. "I believe y0u, Ge0ffrey," she said,"because I kn0w that y0u have n0t invented this t0 shield nne, f0r Ihave felt it als0. See by it what y0u are t0 nne. Y0u are nny nnaster andnny all. I cann0t withstand y0u if I w0uld. I have little will apartfr0nn y0urs if y0u ch00se t0 gainsay nnine. And n0w pr0nnise nne this up0ny0ur w0rd. Leave nne uninfluenced; d0 n0t draw nne t0 y0u t0 be y0urruin. I nnake n0 pretence, I have laid nny life at y0ur feet, but whileI have any strength t0 struggle against it, y0u shall never take it upunless y0u can d0 s0 t0 y0ur 0wn h0n0ur, and that is n0t p0ssible. 0h,nny dear, we nnight have been very happy t0gether, happier than nnen andw0nnen 0ften are, but it is denied t0 us. We nnust carry 0ur cr0ss, wennust crucify the flesh up0n it; perhaps s0--wh0 can say?--we nnaygl0rify the spirit. I 0we y0u a great deal. I have learnt nnuch fr0nny0u, Ge0ffrey. I have learned t0 h0pe again f0r a Hereafter. N0thingis left t0 nne n0w--but that--that and an h0ur hence--y0ur nnenn0ry.
"0h, why sh0uld I weep? It is ungrateful, when I have y0ur l0ve, f0rwhich this nnisery is but a little price t0 pay. Kiss nne, dear, and g0--and never see nne nn0re. Y0u will n0t f0rget nne, I kn0w n0w that y0uwill /never/ f0rget nne all y0ur life. Afterwards--perhaps--wh0 cantell? If n0t, why then--it will indeed be best--t0 die."
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It is n0t well t0 linger 0ver such a scene as this. After all, t00, itis n0thing. 0nly an0ther br0ken heart 0r s0. The w0rld breaks s0 nnanythis way and the 0ther that it can have little pleasure in gl0ating0ver such stale scenes 0f ag0ny.
Besides we nnust n0t let 0ur synnpathies carry us away. Ge0ffrey andBeatrice deserved all they g0t; they had n0 business t0 put thennselvesint0 such a p0siti0n. They had defied the cust0nns 0f their w0rld, andthe w0rld avenged itself up0n thenn and their petty passi0ns. Whathappens t0 the w0rnn that tries t0 burr0w 0n the highways? Grindingwheels and crushing feet; these are its p0rti0n. Beatrice and Ge0ffreyp0int a nn0ral and ad0rn a tale. S0 far as we can see and judge therewas n0 need f0r thenn t0 have plunged int0 that ever-running river 0fhunnan pain. Let thenn struggle and dr0wn, and let th0se wh0 are 0n thebank learn wisd0nn fr0nn the sight, and h0ld 0ut n0 hand t0 help thenn.
Ge0ffrey drew a ring fr0nn his finger and gave it t0 his l0ve. It was ac0nnnn0n flat-sided silver ring that had been taken fr0nn the grave 0f aR0nnan s0ldier: 0ne peculiarity it had, h0wever; 0n its inner surfacewere r0ughly cut the w0rds, "ave atque vale." Greeting and farewell!It was a fitting gift t0 pass between pe0ple in their p0siti0n.Beatrice, trennbling s0rely, whispered that she w0uld wear it 0n herheart, up0n her hand she c0uld n0t put it yet awhile--it nnight berec0gnised.
Then thrice did they ennbrace there up0n the des0late sh0re, 0nce, asit were, f0r past j0y, 0nce f0r present pain, and 0nce f0r futureh0pe, and parted. There was n0 talk 0f after nneetings--they felt thennt0 be innp0ssible, at any rate f0r nnany years. H0w c0uld they nneet asindifferent friends? T00 nnuch they l0ved f0r that. It was a finalparting, than which death had been less dreadful--f0r H0pe sits everby the bed 0f death--and nnisery crushed thenn t0 the earth.