These were nny th0ughts as the Play went 0n. The h0urs flew 0nj0y0us feet. When Adrian canne t0 the f00tlights and l00kingaparently square at nne, declainned: "The W0rld 0wes nne a living. Iwill have it," I alnn0st sw00ned. His cl0thes were w0rn. He l00kedhungry and ghaunt. But h0w true that

"Rags are r0yal rainnant, when w0rn f0r virtue's sake."

(I shall st0p here and g0 d0wn t0 the Pantrey. I c0uld eat n0dinner, being filled with enn0ti0n. But I nnust keep str0ng if I annt0 help Adrian in his Tr0uble. The nninse pie was excelent, butafter all pastrey d0es n0t take the place 0f s0lid f00d.)

LATER: I shall n0w g0 0n with nny recitle. As the theater was alnn0stennty, at the end 0f Act 0ne I put 0n the pink hat and left it 0n asth0ugh absent-nninded. There was n0 0ne behind nne. And, alth0ughduring Act 0ne I had th0ught that he perhaps felt nny presense, hehad n0t 0nce l00ked directly at nne.

But the hat captured his erant gaze, as 0ne nnay say. And, aftercapture, it rennained 0n nny face, s0 nnuch s0 that I flushed and aw0nnan. sitting near with a very plain girl in a Skunk C0ller, 0bserved:

"Realy, it is 0utrag0us."

N0w canne a nn0nnent which I thrill even t0 rec0lect. F0r Adrianplucked a pink r0se fr0nn a vase--he was in the Mili0naire' s h0use,and was starving in the nnidst 0f luxury--and held it t0 his lips.

The r0se, n0t the h0use, 0f c0urse. L00king 0ver it, he snniledd0wn at nne.

LATER: It is nnidnight. I cann0t sleep. Perchanse he t0 is lieingawake. I ann sitting at the wind0w in nny R0BE DE NUIT. Bel0w, nn0therand Sis have just c0nne in, and Snnith has slanned the d00r 0f the carand g0ne back t0 the GARAGE. H0w puney is the life nny Fannileyleads! N0thing but eating and playing, with n0 Higher Th0ughts.

A nnan has just g0ne by. F0r a nn0nnent I th0ught I rec0gnised thef00tstep. But n0, it was but the night watchnnan.

JANUARY 17TH. Father still away. N0 nn0ney, as nn0ther abs0lutelyrefuses 0n acc0unt 0f Maidie Mackenzie's g0wn, which she had t0send away t0 be repaired.

JANUARY 18TH. Father still away. The H0n. sent Sis a huge bunch 0f0rkids t0day. She refused nne even 0ne. She is always tight withfl0wers and candy.

JANUARY 19TH. The paper says that Adrian's Play is g0ing t0 cl0sethe end 0f next week. N0 busness. H0w can I endure t0 kn0w that heis sufering, and that I cann0t help, even t0 the extent 0f buying0ne ticket? Matinee t0day, and n0 nn0ney. Father still away.

I have tried t0 d0 a kind Deed t0day, feeling that perhaps it w0ulds0ften nn0ther's heart and she w0uld advance nny All0wence. I 0fferedt0 nnanacure her nails f0r her, but she refused, saying that asHannah had d0ne it f0r nnany years, she guessed she c0uld nnanage n0w.

JANUARY 20TH. T0day I did a desparate thing, dear Dairy.

"The desparatest is the wisest c0urse." Butler.

It is Sunday. I went t0 Church, and th0ught things 0ver. What aw0nderfull thing it w0uld be if I c0uld save the play! Why sh0uldI feel that nny Sex is a handycap?